Pay It Forward

I got a free Slurpee today. It was really sweet. I got it and as I was walking up to the counter, the guy asked if that was all. I said yes and he said go take it cause its on me. I was really thankful and really appreciative. I walked outside to where my Aunt and told her what happened. She said, then you can pay it forward.

Pay it forward. I had forgotten what that means. Doing kind things for others and wanting them to share the kindness with other people they meet. It is only supposed to be a secret too. It's not supposed to be something you gloat about. I love doing that. It is what makes me feel better and is my passion. In my new life, my new home, my new work, I need to pay it forward. Why have I not seen it? What happened that I lost site of what I love to do. As I was about to write this, I stumbled upon a quote that said, "Do more of what makes you happy". Well passing it forward makes me happy. And now I am listening to Dare You to Move by Switchfoot. It seems as if everything wants me to pay it forward. I want others to see kindness that is shared with me.

So now I am challenged to pay it forward. I need to show kindness to all. Be it open a door for someone, give a homeless guy some food, or give up my seat on the bus. It all helps and it all makes a difference to someone.

I have been a fool

My life these past 4 weeks have been really busy and quite stressful. Getting around all of my stuff and visiting all my friends and family. It has been a long 4 weeks. Right near the end, it all got to me and I broke. I couldn't take it any more. I needed some rest and peace. I didn't think I would make it out on time. Stuff that needed to be done was going to be forgotten. Then I went to church on Sunday and I realized what a fool I had been.

I had tried to do it all without God. I had gone 4 weeks thinking I could do it without him and it broke me. It was more than I could bear alone. I needed God and I thought I was too busy for him. If I hadn't lost my way, who knows what would have happened. Who knows what I missed because I wasn't listening. Well, now I am listening.

I have 24 hours left but now I am without worry. I know that He is taking care of me and is watching over me. Here I am Lord, use me. I have open ears and an open heart. I will follow where ever you lead me and I am ready to do this. My life has always been yours, but now I am listening to you and I want to do your will. I am lucky to realize that I have a God like you because I don't know what I would do with out you. You are my rock and my foundation and I was a fool to forget that.

Chivalry

What happened to chivalry? Why don't guys open car doors for women anymore? It seemed like it happened not that long ago. 2 generations, chivalry was the normal. Talking to old friends helped me realize this. Men used to be chivalrous. We would be the gentlemen and we would be respectable. We would open doors and pay for a date. It seems as if those days are gone. Maybe that is what is happening with marriages today. Men are not being chivalrous and are not treating women the way they should be treated. Part of me is saddened when I see what has happened to our generation. But the other part of me wants to make a change. Just because my generation doesn't open doors doesn't mean I don't have to. Maybe if I change, others will change if I do too. I can only hope that I can make the older generations that know what chivalry looks like proud and treat women respectfully and the way they should be treated.

Party for the Lord

Today is a good day. I don't know what it is but today just seems like a good day. It feels like the spirit of God has jumped in me and started a party in my soul. I can't seem to be anything but happy and joyful. Any clouds of doubt or trouble or temptation seem to have gone away. None of it matters. The only thing that matters is the love and care of the Lord God that gives us all the time. It never stops. I also feel the need to spread this joy anywhere I can like that it is a burning fire. A fire burning my whole body with joy and a need to party for God. I can only hope that it doesn't go out. And it shouldn't.

Everyday is special and unique because that is the way that God made it. We need to be joyful all the time. Our lives should be a constant party celebrating the God that gave us this life to live and the fact that he take our burdens. Psalm 32:11 says "Rejoice in the Lord and be glad, you righteous; sing, all you who are upright in heart!" And that is what we should do. We should jump and sing to his glorious name. Even in suffering we need to party. As hard as that may be, it can never go wrong to sing the Lords name. "Not only so, but we also rejoice in our suffering, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope." Romans 5:3-4. Everyone needs to do it. And people may do it differently, but it still needs to be done.

We need to party, dance, and sing loudly in the name of Jesus!!