Pay It Forward

I got a free Slurpee today. It was really sweet. I got it and as I was walking up to the counter, the guy asked if that was all. I said yes and he said go take it cause its on me. I was really thankful and really appreciative. I walked outside to where my Aunt and told her what happened. She said, then you can pay it forward.

Pay it forward. I had forgotten what that means. Doing kind things for others and wanting them to share the kindness with other people they meet. It is only supposed to be a secret too. It's not supposed to be something you gloat about. I love doing that. It is what makes me feel better and is my passion. In my new life, my new home, my new work, I need to pay it forward. Why have I not seen it? What happened that I lost site of what I love to do. As I was about to write this, I stumbled upon a quote that said, "Do more of what makes you happy". Well passing it forward makes me happy. And now I am listening to Dare You to Move by Switchfoot. It seems as if everything wants me to pay it forward. I want others to see kindness that is shared with me.

So now I am challenged to pay it forward. I need to show kindness to all. Be it open a door for someone, give a homeless guy some food, or give up my seat on the bus. It all helps and it all makes a difference to someone.

I have been a fool

My life these past 4 weeks have been really busy and quite stressful. Getting around all of my stuff and visiting all my friends and family. It has been a long 4 weeks. Right near the end, it all got to me and I broke. I couldn't take it any more. I needed some rest and peace. I didn't think I would make it out on time. Stuff that needed to be done was going to be forgotten. Then I went to church on Sunday and I realized what a fool I had been.

I had tried to do it all without God. I had gone 4 weeks thinking I could do it without him and it broke me. It was more than I could bear alone. I needed God and I thought I was too busy for him. If I hadn't lost my way, who knows what would have happened. Who knows what I missed because I wasn't listening. Well, now I am listening.

I have 24 hours left but now I am without worry. I know that He is taking care of me and is watching over me. Here I am Lord, use me. I have open ears and an open heart. I will follow where ever you lead me and I am ready to do this. My life has always been yours, but now I am listening to you and I want to do your will. I am lucky to realize that I have a God like you because I don't know what I would do with out you. You are my rock and my foundation and I was a fool to forget that.